Timing

I am quickly learning that my "time frame" is not always God's timing!  I knew to expect this with adopting, but for whatever crazy reason, I thought I could be so organized that I would be able to keep my perfect little time line in order!  Ha!!  Well, my goal was to have all of our paperwork ready to submit to China before Christmas!  Oh, how much I have to learn! We just received our completed home study in the mail on Friday.  Which means, we can just now fill out and mail our I-800a form (if we had our hague approval letter mailed to the correct address, which we did not! - another one is on the way!).  Then, little did I know, that we will have to wait 1.5 - 2.5 months to get our USCIS approval to be included in our dossier, which will have to go through all the certification process. 

Having a little bit of a let down that things didn't move quicker like I had hoped but fully trusting in God's timing.  All through these past 6-7 months, I have been content with our 2 year plan to bring a our baby home.  Now, all of the sudden, I have this crazy sense of urgency to bring her home now!  I feel like a crazy woman, praying about it all the time and making my requests to God to somehow bring us a baby now.  And, in the midst, God is growing our hearts more and more in the direction of adoption. 

Just this weekend, Robbie and I celebrated our 12 year wedding anniversary.  And do you know what my man of 12 years asked me?  What if God is calling us to adopt more than one?  How would you feel about that?  What if He wants us to adopt a lot or wants us to somehow partner with an orphanage to care for more than our household?  I don't know what God is working our lives or in our hearts, but we are one, me and Rob, and God is giving us a united heart that only He could create!  Oh how that makes me love him all the more, that he is open and is listening to God speak to him; and that he is ready and willing to obey God no matter how crazy His calling may be.