It's a . . . !

Today, our expecting mom had her first appointment!  The appointment was at 3:00 and I was eager to hear how it went, but didn't want to text and sound too anxious! My son had a baseball game so we packed and got to the park, but my phone was in my hand waiting for a text or call on how it went! At 6:00 my phone beeped with a new text message from our translator wanting know if I had heard from our EM! She said that they were able to get an ultrasound today and the mom wanted to be the one to text me the picture and the gender!

Let me first say that my emotions were all over the place here.  Yes, I was super excited and anxious to get a picture of our baby and to find out if it was a boy or a girl.  BUT, I was extremely sad for this mom who had just seen a picture of her baby and wondered how hard it would be for her to share that picture with me.  I know what it's like to lay on that warm table with the cold, sticky gel slathered on my belly waiting to see the little life growing inside of me.  I've felt the overwhelming joy and cried the happy tears when the sound of that quick heart beat filled the room.  This mom would no doubt have various emotions as well. But, hers would be different. 

As I waited at that ballpark with Robbie on one side and dear friend on the other, I realized that it must be hard for this mom to press the send button and share her baby with me.  I wanted to give her as much time as she needed.  Like sending that picture would make it all real for her.  I know she was sad from the conversation I had with the translator.  I know her children were excited to see their sibling, and then sad to learn that they would not be bringing the baby home as part of their family.  But I also know that she believes that this adoption is the best choice for this baby and for that, we are excited to bless her with a loving family to raise her child!

                                                 At 7:02 I received the following text;

 

Girl

I had a dream last week that we got to the hospital with all things girl and we had a boy! So, no counting chickens over here yet! We are still treading carefully and not getting our hopes up knowing that domestic adoptions fall through all the time.  There are no guarantees here, so we continue to pray for the Lord to guide us on this journey as He has always been faithful to do!